I often feel guilty about not talking or seeing the people I care for more often. I have many reasons, but the most important reason is I am afraid. Afraid I will lose another to any number of causes. But most prevelent is addiction. I have too many experiences with addiction. My father, mother, step sister, grandparents, multiple friends, and my ex. It’s sting has infected me. And I am afraid I will never be able to connect again.